I am blessed beyond measure to have turned this sewing-blogging hobby of mine into a little business. I never would have dreamed that it would be possible when I committed to learning 7 years ago. However, Wednesday I was struck with a fear that maybe I just didn’t enjoy sewing anymore. Every attempt was interrupted , and the pants sewing has been frustrating, and I felt dragged down by expectations of what I “should” do as a blogger. (get sponsors! make patterns! post regularly! join blog tours! blah de blah de blah de blah!) Sewing was becoming all stress and no fun, and that is a scary place to be when you have invested so many hours into learning a craft.
Yesterday, stuck at home, car-less, with three kids at school, and an extra long day ahead of me, I decided to toss out all responsibilities and to-do lists and just have fun.
And fun was had. Oh, glorious fun. Vinny and Gladys pulled my sewing room to pieces and rubbed crushed crackers into the carpeting, and I sewed on. Cereal boxes and bowls still covered the kitchen table at 5pm, and I sewed on. We had peanut butter and jelly for dinner, and I sewed on. By the end of the day, I was dancing around the kitchen, joking with my kids, and grinning ear-to-ear.
This is why I sew – for the pleasure of the vision coming to life in my hands, for the butterflies of excitement, and for the feeling of completion when my efforts result in something, a tangible something.
I am still going to Tackle The Pants, but now I can do it with a renewed sense of excitement. I am still blogging, but I can do it with a renewed sense of Who I Am.
Thank you, Toby The Dinosaurus, as you have been already named, for helping me find my way back again.
Does sewing ever get stressful for you? What kind of projects bring you joy?
The pattern for this dinosaur is from Abby Glassenberg’s book “Stuffed Animals: From Concept to Construction”. As one of her pattern testers, I received a complimentary copy. For more information on her amazing book, check out the original book review post.